SEC Chapter 57 Playing with your life, do you understand?
Chapter 57 Playing with your life, do you understand?
As time went by, Song Tang's worries and anxieties piled up, and he couldn't help but think of the time when Yang Qing called him to the film crew. Fang Hening's state made him feel sympathetic when he thought of it now.
Silent, lifeless.
It's as if if he doesn't catch it, the other person will disappear from his life.
The call from Fu Zongyuan was like a life-saving straw. He didn't care about anything else but Fang Hening's condition, and everything else came second.
There was silence over there, and he asked again: "Where is He Ning? Do you know?"
"Song Tang, do you know what kind of person he is? Do you know why he entered the showbiz? Can you accept the real him? Do you like an illusory appearance or the real him?"
Song Tang was in a hurry, but Fu Zongyuan was talking to him in such vague terms, his voice couldn't help but raise his voice, "Is this the time to talk about this? I can't get in touch with him! I just want to see him with my own eyes , to confirm that he is safe and sound, didn't you call to tell me where he is? Don't waste time. "
"If you don't think about some things clearly, it's better not to see them."
Wanting to get news from Fu Zongyuan, Song Tang had to be patient and said seriously: "He is indeed not as gentle and easy-going as I thought at first, but this does not affect our relationship. I know he When the actor is to vent negative emotions, it’s okay, everyone has bad emotions, I don’t think it’s okay.”
"He's good, he's the best for me."
He likes Fang Hening's gentle side, and he fully accepts those deep possessiveness and love. If he accepts such feelings, if it is not strong enough to leave no room for it, it is impossible for him to go this far with Fang Hening, let alone let the other party Step into your own life.
A sense of security, Fang Hening gave him what he lacked and needed the most.
For him, absolute freedom equals complete uncertainty. He likes Fang Hening's possessiveness, which makes him feel that he is important, indispensable, and unique.
He knew that there was something he hadn't grasped, but it didn't matter, no matter what those things he didn't understand, it wouldn't affect his relationship with Fang Hening.
As long as the relationship between each other is there, many things can be solved, and no matter how difficult it is, it will not be completely unsolvable.
After all, in the deepest suffocating despair, he had already seen clearly what he wanted.
"Song Tang, if you're ready, come on, it's at the clubhouse last time."
Song Tang stopped talking nonsense, thanked him, turned around and went straight to his destination.
His eyes were heavy, and no one would be in a good mood after being framed like this, although this time things were a bit strange.
It stands to reason that it is normal for Fang Hening to be unhappy, but it is not enough to refuse to answer his call. If the matter is not so serious, there must be something else that he does not know.
His mind was in a mess, he simply didn't think about anything, and he would talk about it after seeing Fang Hening.
After arriving at the clubhouse, Song Tang hurried upstairs and saw Fu Zongyuan and Meng Ling standing outside the private room. He was anxious, but he still asked, "Apart from the hot searches on the Internet, did anything else happen?"
Fu Zongyuan and Meng Ling looked at each other, looking at Song Tang with a cold expression, Fu Zongyuan said, "If you want to know anything, you can ask him yourself."
Song Tang knew in his heart that there was really something else going on.
He opened the door and walked into the darkness. Unlike what he expected, there was no smell of alcohol, no smoke, no drinking or smoking?
He was puzzled and didn't turn on the light. He was afraid that he would accidentally stimulate Fang Hening, so he groped his way in and called out softly, "Hening?"
No answer.
He frowned, and just as he was about to say something, he tripped and his body instantly tilted to the side and fell to the ground. He subconsciously supported it with his hands, and after feeling the softness of the carpet, he followed Just a stabbing pain.
But this fall made him completely calm down.
After his eyes gradually adapted to the dark environment, he looked around and could barely see some outlines. It was obvious that it was a mess. The sofas, tables, and cabinets were all miserable and crooked on the ground, and the glass ceramics and other ornaments were even more broken on the ground. The thing that tripped him up just now was a chair that fell on the ground, and what caught his hand was a fragment of something unknown.
He didn't care about the bloody palm, he lifted the chair, looked at the person who was leaning against the sofa and sitting on the carpet, and paused.
Looking at each other in the darkness, looking at Fang Hening's dark, gloomy eyes, Song Tang slowly walked over in small steps, knelt down in front of Fang Hening, and held Fang Hening with his other free hand. The hand on the lap, "He Ning..."
Fang Hening didn't respond, but just pulled out his hand.
Such a refusal attitude made Song Tang not very confident. He could feel the other party's hand trembling faintly after just touching it for a moment, as if it was caused by excessive force, or was suppressing something.
Thinking of the mess in the room in front of him, he somewhat guessed it.
Will it be a little bit violent?It was the same with the crew last time, but this time it was more serious than last time.
At least Fang Hening is a good person, so if there is any problem, there is still room for solution. He was thinking about what to do, but the person who had been silent all this time suddenly spoke.
He was startled for a moment, and subconsciously asked, "What did you say?"
Fang Hening stared at Song Tang with deeper eyes, "I'll let you go."
Again.The voice of the person in front of him was hoarse and deep, and Song Tang felt uncomfortable hearing it. He knelt on one knee and leaned closer to Fang Hening, slowing down his speech, "Why did you let me go? What are you hiding from me? Did I know that? Was it the last time I asked you that you said it wasn't time?"
"you……"
"I'm very worried about you. I've heard it and seen it. Why don't you answer my phone or reply to my message? You're not a three-year-old kid anymore. Don't you know it's rude? Don't you know it's worrying?"
Fang Hening listened to Song Tang's questioning, said it was a questioning, but his tone was very gentle, like a whisper between lovers.
His throat choked, he slowed down, and said, "I don't want you to see me like this, do you understand, just leave when you understand, don't worry about me."
"Nonsense." Song Tang caressed Fang Hening's side face with one hand, his eyes softened, "What's wrong with you? Isn't it just a bad mood? You are my boyfriend. No matter what happens, there is no need for fear of affecting me. Just avoid, if you are like this, do I have to avoid you just because I don’t want you to see my embarrassment?”
"Fang Hening, compare your heart with your heart, don't avoid me like this."
"It's different, Song Tang, are you really not worried about me hurting you at all?"
Song Tang paused, and quickly said: "As long as you develop an intimate relationship with someone, there is a possibility of being hurt. I knew early on that family, love and friendship are all the same. I was ready when I promised you. The knife that can hurt me is handed over to you, even if it is really hurt, I will admit it."
Fang Hening laughed softly, "You won't like the real me, be good, be obedient, get out of here now, don't worry about me, it's not the first time, wait for me..."
Before he could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by a hug.
Song Tang leaned over, hugged Fang Hening, and took up the rest of the other party's words, "When you recover, come back and be my caring boyfriend? Fang Hening, can you stop doing this?"
"Yes, that's right, I admit that I am Fang Xuan, and I am very resistant to your other identity, but now I accept it, I don't care what others say or say, I only care about you in my eyes, really You who are with me. Don't avoid me or push me away when things happen, I will be sad too. "
"No matter what happens, I believe in you. You are not alone. You have friends who care about you. You still have...you and me. We can face it together."
Not the first time?Before that?Is it all made by one person like this?
Just thinking about it made him feel a dull pain in his heart.
Fang Hening seldom told him these things, probably because he rejected Fang Xuan at the beginning?Thinking of this possibility, he felt even more uncomfortable in an instant.
Fang Hening's avoidance of his further understanding is inseparable from his avoidance, and the loop is closed.
After listening to Song Tang's words, Fang Hening suddenly laughed softly after a long silence, "No one wants to be with me at this time, playing with their lives, understand?"
I don't understand. Song Tang cherishes his life, but he is even more reluctant to bear Fang Hening. He himself only considers the issue of life and death because he knows the tragic ending of the "villain". Why does Fang Hening say that?He really didn't understand how it was a game of life to accompany the other party like this.
He tightened his arms holding Fang Hening, and said, "It's okay, I'll give it to you if you want it, don't push me away."
Fang Hening has no expression on his face, he will give it if he wants it?Song Tang probably didn't realize it at all. Perhaps he had been hiding too well in front of the other party, or he had suppressed it too much, which gave Song Tang the illusion that it didn't matter.
But he wasn't joking, let alone an exaggeration.
In the quiet darkness where each other's slight breathing could be heard, Fang Hening raised his hand to clamp Song Tang's shoulders, pushing him to the ground violently, and grabbed the neck of the person under him with his other hand, locking everything in his hand. possible struggle.
He stared into Song Tang's eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Between pushing you away and hurting you, do you think I have a choice?"
The world was spinning in an instant, Song Tang didn't react at all, Fang Hening held him tightly, he was a little stunned besides the pain, the other party's expression was too cold, there was no warmth at all, his eyes seemed to be frozen in a cold pool The black jade that has been preserved for thousands of years, no matter how hot the temperature is, there is no way to warm it up.
And hidden under this coldness is crazy and fiery love, just looking at it like this makes him shudder, cold, cold to the extreme, it will burn his soul.
Song Tang was in a daze, not thinking about struggling. He raised his relatively free hand, stroked Fang Hening's side face lightly, and said softly, "You won't hurt me."
Fang Hening's eyes were cold, but there was a self-deprecating arc on his lips, "Don't be so confident, I don't even believe in myself, why do you dare to believe in me?"
Song Tang could feel that Fang Hening's mood was not right, it was suppressed.
What if it is released?what will happen?
To be honest, he didn't know what greeted him, but he didn't want to see Fang Hening like this, suppressing himself in order not to be disgusted and afraid by him, this was not what he wanted.
He moved his hand down a little and touched Fang Hening's heart, his voice was already trembling, "No reason, what I really want to say... according to my intuition, according to what I feel, don't worry, I want to know the real truth What are you like, I don't need a fake perfect lover, I said this, I will say it again today, I want to know the real you."
"He Ning, what I want to love is a complete person, not a perfect side of him. You must always give me a chance to understand you, and you can't just think that I can't do it."
Song Tang spoke very slowly, trembling slightly, but he spoke every word clearly and firmly. Fang Hening listened, and the tyrannical emotion in his heart finally slowly dormant.
Like a wild beast being soothed.
He curled the corners of his lips silently, well, his vision is still very good, Song Tang can always surprise him.
However, he was still not sure. If he really faced him who was in a state of rage and couldn't control his emotions, even if he wasn't afraid, wouldn't Song Tang be disappointed in him?
He slowly regained his composure, let go of his hand, and noticed something was wrong when he calmed down——
He touched the side of his face, where Song Tang stroked just now, it was sticky to the touch, and there was a slight sweet smell...it was blood, this realization made him pause for a moment.
Immediately, a burst of fear that surprised himself rolled up in his heart.
Did he hurt Song Tang?
Finding that Fang Hening's mood had eased a lot, Song Tang secretly heaved a sigh of relief, but when he saw Fang Hening paused again, he asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"
Fang Hening didn't move, but asked instead, "Where did you get hurt?"
Song Tang blinked, and suddenly realized that his palm was cut, and he didn't care about the pain just now, but now Fang Hening's question aroused his pain again;
He frowned slightly, and said in a low voice: "It's okay, didn't you just fall down and scratch your hand, it doesn't hurt anymore."
Fang Hening took a breath, got up and carefully avoided Song Tang's scratched hand, pulled him up and took him to the sofa to sit down, frowning, "Sit still."
Song Tang responded, and when Fang Hening turned on the light, he squinted his eyes before slowly opening them. Even though he only knew that the situation was bad in the dark just now, he was shocked by the mess in the room when he looked at it brightly.
This... is almost the same as being robbed, and the destruction is even more thorough. Thinking of what happened here before he came here, he couldn't help frowning. Does Fang Hening like that look a bit like the interpretations in previous film and television works?
Before he could figure out why, someone who walked up to him interrupted his thoughts.
He looked at the blood on Fang Hening's face, drew his attention back, and raised his other hand to wipe the other party, "Why this expression, the wound is not deep."
Fang Hening used tweezers to hold a cotton ball and dipped it in iodophor, and disinfected Song Tang's two-centimeter scratch on his palm, without raising his eyes, "It's because of me."
Looking at the corners of Fang Hening's slightly lowered lips, Song Tang lifted the corners of Fang Hening's mouth slightly with his fingers when he was wiping off the blood on his profile face, "Don't do this, I fell it myself, it has nothing to do with you .”
Fang Hening didn't respond, but was still upset.
Song Tang was not annoyed if he didn't get a response, knowing that Fang Hening was in a bad mood, he stayed quietly and let the other party treat his wound first.
After the wound was treated, and the blood on his other hand was carefully wiped clean, he watched Fang Hening get up to pack the medicine box, he hesitated for a while, and said: "Hot searches are all nonsense, no matter the company It's still an acting career, you've done everything impeccably, Yang Qing said you will handle this matter, but there is no progress before I come in, He Ning, I don't believe this is Fang's speed, you..."
Fang Hening put away his things, took the chair that Song Tang helped up, walked to the sofa and sat down, his face was expressionless, his emotions were heavy and he hadn't really recovered, "I know what I do, the people I care about know, It doesn't matter what other people think of me."
Seeing Fang Hening's nonchalant expression, Song Tang became angry immediately, "Can you care about your reputation? Fang Xuan's reputation is not good, and now you want to let Fang Hening's reputation be ruined too?"
"It's just reputation, don't worry about it, I don't care about it..."
"I care!"
Song Tang stood up and walked in front of Fang Hening, with cold eyes, "I've seen all of your works, and I know the reality of your awards. If you rely on things other than acting, you can only How many film stars? You can win the grand slam several times! Can you cherish your own feathers? Why let others frame you?"
"Even if you don't care, even if you don't care... why don't you think about whether the person you care about cares?"
Fang Hening raised his head slightly, looked at Song Tang, who was getting more and more angry as he talked, and who was getting more and more wronged for him, narrowed his eyes slightly, and patted his lap lightly, "Sit, since you asked here, can we talk more?" Say a few words."
The air seemed to freeze for a moment.
Song Tang felt that he must have made a mistake.
Song Tang stood in place, looking at the calm Fang Hening uncertainly, with a somewhat bewildered expression on his face, he asked a little stiffly, "Sit? Where are you sitting?"
Fang Hening patted his leg again, then raised his hand, "Come here."
To be honest, Song Tang hesitated.
What kind of shame play is this?Not coming.
He even took a step back and insisted, "I can talk while standing."
Fang Hening's hand was hanging in the air all the time, insisting: "Don't you want to have a good chat with me, how tired you are standing, this is the posture for a good chat? Sit down, I will tell you everything you want to know."
Song Tang doesn't want to sit, sit on his lap?No matter how you sit, it's embarrassing enough, but what Fang Hening said is really tempting.
He really wanted to have a good chat with the other party, and he also had something to ask.
After struggling for a long time, he simply lifted his legs and sat on Fang Hening's lap, and said with a cold face: "Face to face is just to facilitate communication. I have no other intentions, and you are not allowed to have it. Let's talk about business."
Anyway, it's just the two of them, and it's not like they haven't lost face before.
It's probably... the mentality of not being burdened by too much debt.
Fang Hening laughed, wrapped his arms around Song Tang's waist, and pressed Song Tang's back into his arms with the other hand. He calmed down a little, and said, "Treasure your reputation? But what is reputation worth, because Caring about me so you persuade me to cherish my reputation and the Fang family's reputation? And because you care about me, you deny the lover I choose and point fingers at my feelings?"
"It's not ridiculous. They don't care about me. They just use this incident to show their family affection. They also think that I should be moved and accepted..."
"They only have themselves in their eyes, they only care about themselves, and they always start with their own interests in everything they do. It used to be, and it is still now."
"When they don't need me, they pretend that I don't exist, and when they need me, they come together one or two to play the emotional card, so self-righteous—"
"It's disgusting, they give it, why should I accept it?"
"If you don't need it, you don't need it. Staying away from my life is the last and all they can do for me."
Fang Hening's voice was cold and full of sarcasm, Song Tang didn't hear even a trace of nostalgia from it, even the hatred that he could vaguely feel before disappeared completely, just as Fang Hening said, if you don't need it, you don't need it, There is no hatred at all, just strangers who are related by blood.
He was puzzled at the beginning today, but after hearing all this, he understood that Fang Mingshi and Yu Wenli must be the reason for the other party's sudden emotional problems.
These two people are probably the emotional fuse for Fang Hening.
Originally, the matter of being framed was not a big deal in Fang Hening's opinion, but the so-called biological parents stepped in with a high opinion of themselves, pointing at the moral high ground with an attitude of course, especially involving him. It ignited Fang Hening's unstable emotions.
I don't hate it anymore, I don't care anymore, but I still get angry and angry because of those people's conceited and arrogant behavior. This is human nature.
He understands it, just like his social terror, which is usually stable, but can't be controlled when encountering emergencies.
Thinking of this, he paused. Fang Hening's mood was a little unstable, but it wasn't to the same extent as his illness, right?
It is normal for a person to have negative emotions. Just because he has social fear, he should not just think of others as such.
He withdrew his thoughts, put his arms around Fang Hening's shoulders, combed the other party's hair, and said softly: "Emotions are the same, you have to accept it if you don't give it to others, He Ning, I said I won't force you to do anything, I respect whatever you decide, and you have the freedom to accept or refuse."
"No matter how you choose, I will stand with you, I am by your side, don't worry, there is something I am willing to face with you, next time... if there is a next time, don't exclude me , if you sincerely promise me your whole life, don’t do it like today.”
"I'm not happy that you pushed me away."
Fang Hening's side face was pressed against the chest of the man in his arms, the other party's voice was not high, but the meaning of seriousness in these words was very clear.
He raised the corners of his lips silently, and murmured in a low voice: "You will make me want to hide you, no one will see you, it only belongs to me."
Song Tang blinked, still feeling embarrassed to hear such words, he responded a little too late, "There's no need to hide it...it's yours alone, I won't treat others like I treat you again."
Fang Hening was quite satisfied with Song Tang's words. He raised his face and kissed the tip of Song Tang's chin lightly, with an affectionate smile in his eyes, and asked, "Baby, you said you belonged to me alone, then do you want us more intimate?"
Song Tang froze for a moment.
He lowered his head slightly, looking at the turmoil in Fang Hening's dark eyes, the other's hand on his back slowly moved up the spine, clearly separated by several layers of clothes, but seemed to directly touch his skin... …is a burning sensation that is so vivid that it cannot be ignored.
The implications are self-explanatory.
The author says:
He Ning decided to improve his reputation a long time ago, saying that he doesn't care about this is a negative emotion, so he didn't do it this time (slightly orz;
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